I’m trying a different theme again. It’s not perfect, but I don’t hate it. Definitely better than the previous one. What do you think?
Edit: Looks like we have a winner. This theme stays for now.
I’m trying a different theme again. It’s not perfect, but I don’t hate it. Definitely better than the previous one. What do you think?
Edit: Looks like we have a winner. This theme stays for now.
… I guess I forgot for awhile while I was overextending myself on trades and pretending to be an artist. I think maybe it’s about time I get back to something I’m actually supposedly kind of good at. There’s many lifetimes worth of stories kickin’ around in my head, but one in particular is fleshed out enough for me to actually start telling it. So, once I get things sorted out on the trading front, I may well be going on lengthy hiatus again.
So yeah, I’m gonna try and be writer now. Legend has it that I have some skill at this. I think it was my first grade teacher that wanted me to mention her when I wrote my first novel. And the teacher of one of the last (and greatest) classes I took before the premature end of my high school days noted I had some talent for it, intending to have me take a journalism class the following year.
But alas, I’ve never even had the focus to complete so much as a short story, or even start many. And if you read into the last sentence of the previous paragraph, you know whatever talent I allegedly have is very un-edumacated. I’m out of practice too. I’ve hardly read any books since my mid-teens, and my only effort of note to write (dabbling in fanfiction) about four years ago flamed out after about six chapters. And now I’m going to write a freakin’ novel? Lolwut?
As you can see, I’ve got pretty much nothing going for me here… you may even be thinking I’m delusional. It’s a perfectly reasonable and probably correct assumption. After all, legit mental health issues aside, I’ve spent my 24 years of life skating by on “potential” and have disappointed everyone who has ever seen anything even remotely special in me. My mind burns out on things pathetically easily because I’ve never needed to put much effort into stuff to do well enough to just skate by.
To be honest, I don’t even think I can do this. I have no reason to think so. Nothing in my history says I am even capable of pulling off something even a thousand times easier. I’ll be lucky if I make it past the first chapter (and I’m being generous going that high). But… I have to try to make good here. I hate myself for failing the above mentioned people who thought I had potential (it’s… not a small number). I also hate myself for failing myself. If I had such mythical potential that so many of those people went to ridiculous lengths to try to get me going in the right direction, why am I in such pathetic place in life?
I’ve failed on almost every possible level, and it’s made me very self-loathing and miserable. I’m sick of feeling useless and worthless and helpless and hopeless. Worse, I’m sick of BEING all those things, and more. And for as little as I’ve actually written, writing is the one skill I have enough confidence in to try and make good with. Even if I’m stable enough, I’m never going to have the mental stamina to be able to work 9-5 or do anything tedious (no, writing isn’t tedious to me), so this is what I’ve got. I don’t think I can make good for myself or any of the people I failed in the past in any other way.
I’ve been a miserable shell of a person for over a decade, if not my entire life, but for some reason this summer, I’ve started to come out of it a little bit. Little-by-little, I’ve been finding myself capable of doing things I had no idea I could do.
So… I’m going to try to write now. I have no real expectation of getting anywhere significant with this project, as bad as I want to have some sudden crazy burst of whatever and write the whole thing in a month or two, but I will give it the best effort I can muster. It’s all I can do. Maybe I’ll get a little further than I think, maybe it’ll be a little better than I think. Maybe it’ll suck like Hoover. But even if I only manage to write a page & a half that isn’t very good, it will be better than nothing. It will be something. It will be a start. And maybe I can build on it. I guess I just have to do it, and keep at it for as long as my will can hold out.
~I’m a writer now.
Also try to win a HUGE Hall of Fame prize package from the Collective Troll. Or just vote for some Hall of Famers if the prize interests you not. Enter here, more votes are needed, nay DEMANDED. Bwahahahaha… umm, yeah.
One of these days I’m gonna do a contest. Maybe when I get to 5,000 hits. I’ve got some stuff I’d like to give away.
Alright friends, fans, and future lovers (wait, do I even have ANY of those things?), I gots to attempt sleepin’. Sh*t’s about to be on when I wake up in the morning early afternoon. Peace & pizza pie!
Get ya trollface on…
SOMEDAY I will complete the 500 Home Run Club post, but that is not tonight. Tonight we take it easy, take it slow. Yeah, we’re just gonna touch on a few pressing issues, just for the sake of doing a post.
• First thing first. I mentioned it on twitter, and it’s half the reason I haven’t felt like blogging for the past few days. It kinda bummed me out. My Allen & Ginter cards fell on the floor a few days ago. Fortunately, relatively few were damaged, and only a half dozen severely so. Unfortunately, most of the severely damaged ones were intended for Night Owl. I’m really really sorry, but a few of the A&G meant for you are pretty much ruined. The bat card, the SP, and the base Dodgers are undamaged, but I think most of the regular base have had it. Again, I am really sorry about this.
• Moving on, I’ve wasted a s***load of money on several 2009 Topps Chrome fat/rack pack things. They have seven cards and one or (usually, judging by my packs) two parallels or inserts per pack for $5. As of right now, I’ve sworn off of them. Here is what I have of them to trade. Take note, most of the first two packs, typed up in a recent post, fell in a separate incident and were damaged beyond saving, and a select few already have potential homes. Anyway, here is what is available.
1, A-Rod, 9 Mike Lowell, 12 Stephen Drew, 25 Garrett Atkins, 27 Francisco Liriano, 62 Chase Utley, 69 Max Scherzer, 94 Joe Mauer, 196 Rickie Weeks, 113 Magglio Ordonez, 124 Joe Nathan, 132 Derek Lowe, 142 Yovani Gallardo, 178 Scott Lewis Indians RC, 179 George Kotteras Red Sox RC, 190 Andrew Bailey A’s RC, 194 Elvis Andrus Rangers RC, 217 Brett Cecil Blue Jays RC, 218 Derek Holland Rangers RC
118 Andy Pettitte, 139 Ryan Howard
108 Howie Kendrick, 187 Jesse Chavez Pirates RC
• Here is a random pack break of ’09 Score football, for the heck (trying hard to cuss less) of it:
230 Hines Ward
193 Brandon Jacobs
119 Matt Schaub
154 Davone Bess
17 Martellus Bennett Young Stars
335 Devin Moore Seahawks RC
106 Donald Lee Glossy Parallel
Pretty cool looking cards. I want to get all the Bears in this set, and Cutler if he isn’t in a Bears uniform.
• It’s a purely theoretical assumption, but hopefully asking here will be the simplest way. I sent out packages to Baseball Dad, Indians, Baseball Cards, and Random Wax (Is this a name change alert? I haven’t been paying much attention for a few days…) and Heartbreaking Cards of Staggering Genius. I believe they went out last Monday. Have any of you gotten them? And was there anything useful for the former two gentlemen?
• Oh, so you can see just how in over my head I am when it comes to trading, here’s my overall Trade/Send Stuff Queue and how far along everything is. Note that the order of readiness doesn’t mean order it will be sent (aside from the first one), size of the package and my random sense of focus-ness will determine that:
Night Owl (EDIT: SENT!)
Dinged Corners (EDIT: SENT!!!!!!!!!!! After this monster of a package, I had to go buy more cases to send cards in. They’ve gone up in price… >.<)
Cardboard Junkie– Being a Lonestarr Special, I suppose this one is Nearly Ready.
Sooz– Nearly Ready, Jeter Sketch Card just needs finished.
Marie– Must Email; but all potential cards are organized.
Wicked Ortega– (EDIT: EMAILED)
Beardy– Must Email; but pretty much all potential cards are organized.
JD’s Daddy– (EDIT: This trade is ACTIVE.)
Wax Heaven– SASE About Ready, just need to finish Andrew Miller Sketch Card, which isn’t as far along as I thought or hoped. (SASE is for ’09 UD Football Heroes inserts, btw Mario)
Nachos Grande– Must Email and Organizing; slightly further along than ones below.
McCann Can Triple– Organizing.
White Sox Cards– Organizing.
Sharpe Since ’92– Early Stages. Was it just for random A&G minis? In any case, I must see what else I can offer.
Shot Not Taken– Where To Begin…
Wow, that is madness… I didn’t even realize I had that much stuff in the works. And I bet that isn’t even one of the longest trade queues going. Now if I only had an even remotely acceptable excuse for my slowness and/or laziness. *le sigh*
I guess that does it for now. If I forgot to put anyone in the neverending conga line of trades/sends that should be there, let me know please, and I will correct it. Back to looking over Night Owl‘s epic checklist. His cards go out around Wednesday-ish. The rest… I don’t know. I’m sorry.
… Did I mention I’m sorry? 😦
Over at Wax Heaven, a question was posed: Which member of the 500 Home Run Club had the least impressive career?
Well, let’s find out… by looking at the statistics. They say the numbers never lie, so Baseball-Reference will be our guide.
Notes before we begin:
I’m not taking performance enhancers into consideration. We’re going purely by statistics. Deal with it.
Everyone with 600+ Home Runs are exempt from least impressive debate due to the sheer number they hit.
Triples and stolen bases are pretty irrelevant unless in abnormally high amounts, and even then only stolen bases are worth considering. Triples are too dependent on where most of a player’s games are played. In other words, it’s hard to hit triples at Wrigley.
We’ll start at the bottom, and work our way up.
Stats: 504 HR, 3255 Hits, 560 2B, 35 3B, 1917 RBI, 1627 Runs, 110 SB, 1333 BB, 1516 K, .287 AVG, .359 OBP, .476 SLG, .836 OPS, 129 OPS+
Awards: 1977 Rookie of the Year, 8-time All-Star, 3 Silver Sluggers, 3 Gold Gloves, Top-5 in MVP voting 6 times, 0 MVPs
+ 3255 hits, 1917 RBIs, and 560 doubles are all legitimately legendary numbers; Highly decorated, even defensively
– .287 batting average, .836 OPS, and 129 OPS+ aren’t quite elite
Notes: Overall, Murray’s numbers indicate longevity more than out & out greatness, but still an outstanding and highly decorated career with some numbers that are much too big to ignore. And hey, there’s nothing wrong with longevity.
He isn’t going to be the best of the bunch, but I highly doubt he’ll be the worst.
~Gary Sheffield (still active)~
Stats: 509 HR, 2683 Hits, 465 2B, 26 3B, 1674 RBI, 1634 Runs, 253 SB, 1471 BB, 1165 K, .292 AVG, .393 OBP, .514 SLG, .908 OPS, 140 OPS+
Awards: 9-time All-Star, 5 Silver Sluggers, Top-5 in MVP voting 3 times, 0 MVPs
+ Borderline-elite OBP, OPS, and OPS+; Considerably more walks than strikeouts; Highly decorated
– Hits are kinda low, but that’s due to missing a lot of time over the years
Notes: Sheff has actually played more seasons than Murray, but has more than 2000 less ABs. That’s FOUR seasons he’s missing out on, compared to Murray. Given the same number of at-bats, he’d likely be pushing 600 Home Runs with everything else at least being on par with Murray.
I have to put Gary Sheffield just below Eddie Murray, even if he does have a good excuse for his lesser numbers. What say you?
Okay, this is going to be way more time-consuming than I thought, and I’m getting really tired, so I will post continue it tomorrow evening. I WILL get this done though. There is just too much good debate to not do the whole thing.
I got a couple fat packs of ’09 Topps Chrome at Walmart, cuz that’s what was available. Seven cards and I guess two inserts or refractors per pack.
175 Bobby Parnell Mets RC- I am so sick of pulling Niese & Parnell rookies this year… I guess Max Scherzer found his anti-collection successors.
68 Jay Bruce- Jay Bruce got a Rookie Cup? Really? I didn’t think last year’s class was that weak.
129 Jeremy Bonderman Blue Refractor #ed /199- Blue refractors are nice, and less… odd, than bronze. For a flagship at least.
164 Ryan Zimmerman X-Fractor- Who needs an arbitrarily limited regular refractor of random color when you can have this? The X-Fractors this year are officially SICK~!! Gone is the s***ty over-the-top “static bling” of recent years, replaced by this much more subtle look… THAT MOVES~!! This is the closest thing I’ve seen to an Atomic Refractor in years. More of this plz.
90 Johan Santana
168 JD Drew
185 Everth Cabrera Padres RC
Checklist 3 of 3
97 Dustin Pedroia
147 Garrett Anderson
W8 Kenji Johjima World Baseball Classic- Have I mentioned how awesome I think the World Baseball Classic is? I loooooooove it. Keeper!
21 Brad Hawpe Refractor
19 Rich Harden- Keeper.
110 Jonathan Papelbon
Even if 2009 Topps Chrome’s design was total arse, it’d still be somewhat worthwhile entirely on the strength of it’s easily obtainable X-Fractors. Fortunately, it looks good and has good photography from what I’ve seen too, so it’s a big winner all-around. This probably won’t be the last of this I pick up, it’s right up there with Upper Deck X.
Also, to make up for lack of Chrome pictures (not that a scan could ever hope to convey the epicness of this years almost Atomic Refractor-quality X-Fractors), here’s a couple quickie sketches I did with a sharpie while sitting around downtown earlier this month:
Not too bad for 40-50 minutes combined when I’ve never done straight ink before I guess.
Until Our Next…
Trying out a new theme. Do you like it, or should I go back to the old one?
I actually have three packages ready to go out tomorrow morning and some others rapidly approaching completion? What did I do with the real Lonestarr?! It must just be excess nervous energy from worrying about someone, and the fact that I’ve been slowly preparing a bunch of these things little-by-little at once when the mood strikes. But whatever the case, things are finally coming to fruition.
♫ Indians cards on the way for Baseball Dad (he sent 20 or so Ryne Sandbergs that I will post about once I’ve scanned them) and David (my WAY late group break money order and a far too few cards in thanks for the Random Packs of Kindness). I can’t guarantee that there’s anything either of you can use, supercollectors that you are, but here’s hopin’. I can always send a little more on (lol) to you if you are unsatisfied.
♫ Lots of wonderfully dementedly random stuff for Matt of Heartbreaking Cards of Staggering Genius will also be on the way tomorrow morning.
♫ The long-overdue SASE for Mario of Wax Heaven is pretty much only waiting for the old Andrew Miller sketch card I did back before I had a teal marker to be inked and colored. It doesn’t seem right to not send anything, as cool and generous as Mario has been with me. Unfortunately, I have nothing else to offer right now besides my mediocre artistic talents.
♫ I just need Night Owl‘s address and I can send out stuff to him any time, Dodgers being one of the first teams I organized back when I thought I had the iron will to get further than two teams into The Great Cardening of 2009.
Looks like that’s everything that is progressed to near-completion. Shoot me an email if you wish to know more specifics.
Hopefully this wasn’t too inane of a post. Just doing whatever I can to take my mind off, umm… things, and thought I’d let people know how their dealings with me are progressing, since I’m painfully, excruciatingly slow at this.
Gettin’ s*** done, yaya. :d
As promised, at the end of the previous post, here be the Cubbies from Steve of White Sox Cards:
The Topps magazine cards I received have some pretty crazy borders. Wait till you see the Andre Dawson below.
Mark Grace practicing the yo-yo trick and one from his little league days. I’m pretty sure prospects that young actually get their own licensed cards nowadays.
In the middle we have pitchers in unintentionally perfect order of delivery. How did I manage to do that? o.O
When I was little I had a giant (like 3ft tall, it was giant at the time) stuffed bear that I named after Jerome Walton.
Finally a couple of Shawon Dunstons. My Shawon-O-Meter is looking good this morning at .334 and rising.
I desperately want a Shawon-O-Meter hit counter for my blog, btw.
The first of three Hawks in the lot, an old school Upper Deck insert of one of, if not THE single greatest player of the 1980s.
I cannot bring myself to even mildly dislike Sammy Sosa. The reasons why could probably take up an entire post of their own. Don’t hold your breath on me ever getting around to it, but it would be a fun one, and an interesting look at how I see the world in the general.
Does that Topps Magazine card not have the single wrongest border for an Andre Dawson card ever? Check the card beside it (?), that man can burn a hole in your very soul with his intense gaze, and you put him on a card with brightly colored birthday streamers for a border? Even the bright yellow border is pushing it, only acceptable because Wolverine can get away with it, and in his prime, The Hawk could take ol’ Logan.
Is George Bell not the coolest looking dude this side of Billy Dee Williams? Just give Bell a spiffy blue cloak, a blaster, and a case of Colt 45, and. It’s. On. (Please drink responsibly, btw. Seriously.)
I’m not sure if it’s because of my Wrestlecrap-tastic nature of finding joy in the cheesy and ridiculous, or if it’s because I think they are genuinely awesome, but for some reason, I loves me some old school Studio.
Oh happy f***ing day, now we’re gonna have to fight with this thing so I can get the next couple of pictures up. F***ing joybiscuits!
Anyway, below are a pair of early ’90s Greg Maddux cards. I like the picture of him covering the base, because he accumulated numerous Gold Gloves in his career.
Anecdote time. When Maddux went to Atlanta back in the day, I was so upset that I quit being a Cubs fan for awhile. It took half a season before I stopped hating them, and a good year and a half before I finally got over it completely. In the meantime, I became a Braves fan. What can I say, I was an angry and hurt 8 year old. Fortunately, sanity eventually (and purely allegedly) prevailed, and I realized my heart was with the Cubs. And here it remains…
Now for some swatchy goodness:
Former Cub, current Oriole Rich Hill. Never really got the hype about him, but the card is hella sweet. This is the first ’07 Turkey Red hit of any kind I’ve seen in person, and I like ’em a lot. Very classy. I said it before and I’ll say it again, this was the only worthwhile year of Turkey Red as a full set. Don’t like the gray bordered ones at all, and can take ’em or leave ’em as an insert this year too, though I seem to be the only one who thinks that.
Much as I like this though, and thankful as I am for it, I’m not sure if it is a keeper or not. If I can send it along to a Cubs or Orioles fan with more appreciation for the subject, I am willing to do so.
You can’t have this next card though! It ain’t gonna be leaving my collection anytime soon.
Speaking of classy cards, Allen & Ginter! This here’s a Derrek Lee bat card, as you can see, and it is AWESOME. Is there anything cooler than an Allen & Ginter hit? Even higher end stuff often pales in comparison to the fun, yet classy framed and encapsulated mini. And Derrek Lee himself is sort of the player equivalent of Allen & Ginter, a class act himself. A perfect match.
I know I’m leaving some cards out here, because I am flaky as all get out, and didn’t write out a complete list. I’ll try to be better about that in the future, but no guarantees.
Once again, if I didn’t say it enough before, a thousand times thank you, Steve. I will do my best to send some nice new Sox your way soon.
Stay thirsty, my friends…
Though I swore off all of Topps offerings in blaster form, I still have a few loose packs worth of A&G to add to the want/for trade list after I get some sleep soon, including a suh-weet Mantle Ginter Back Mini, a couple of which came after the blaster debacle. I guess I can’t fully resist the Allen & Ginter goodness, though no more blasters EVAR~! I’m pretty much done with it till whenever as of now though. My focus has very nearly completely drifted away from baseball cards to non-sport offerings. I am awaiting some as I speak, and the rest of the near future’s boxy offerings are of the entertainment variety.
Anyway, I STILL owe some A&G trade-related emails to the following people (Yes, I do fail, thanks for asking):
Nachos Grande– Send me an email with what you want if you still require anything you inquired about and your address, and I will just send them and some Reds along with no specific strings attached other than my vague wantlists (aka The Lonestarr Special~!), because I’m not completely sure what my nice haul from the A&G group break does to my A&G wantlist.
More on the later group break later, btw…
Box Opener I’m not sure there was anything specific mentioned, so I don’t know where to even begin.
Night Owl– I have a Blake DeWitt ’09 A&G bat card if you need it still. Also plenty of assorted Dodgers of note, including a couple other “hits”, if lil’ Blakey isn’t enough. Well, I guess it doesn’t matter, I always send team stuff anyway, so I’m sure I can make giving up the Fukudome jersey worthwhile. I can get more specific via email if you wish.
Beardy– I’m not sure if my comparably paltry number of A&G cards can help you out any, but I’ve got a decentish-sized stack of Orioles with probably something to get ahold of that No Number Aramis Ramirez Mini.
Cat Osterman remains a dream that only achievable via a pipe of some kind though. *sigh*
Sharpe Since ’92– I can hook you up with some minis for the cards you offered. I’ll need to thoroughly go over the A&G group break stuff to know specifics again though. I know it knocked a few off, but my attention span hasn’t let me get there yet to see what’s what.
And regular trade emails to:
Sac Bunt‘s Chris– One of these years I will get to it.
Wicked Ortega– I haz Marlins cards & stuff. Will trade.
And now for a couple of different, yet equally faily of me things:
Sooz of A Cardboard Problem– Did I reply to the Ichiro list email? I thought I did, but it isn’t in the sent or trade folders, so I’m not sure what the deal is.
David, the king of the Generosity Tribe… I totally flaked and forgot about the money order until I actually saw the box break happened. I have the money order, but I don’t have your address. On the Packs of Random Kindness bubble mailer, it is partially ripped away, and the Seattle Mariners pack of kindness bubble mailer one is long gone it appears, so if you get this message, please email me please. Once I have it, I will send along a small (because I’m fairly severely lacking in your team) selection of Cleveland Indians cards as a thank you for your packs of kindness and hopeful tolerance of my forgetfulness.
If there is anyone I missed, and I’m sure there was, please get in touch. If my email addy isn’t available through my WordPress blog somewhere (I honestly don’t know), then check my Google profile please. It’s also Lonestarr, but with a Walt Bellamy card as the avatar. Can’t miss it probably.
Finally, a quick newsbite for Shot Not Taken. I’m looking at picking up the TNA iMPACT! box in early-mid September (only have about 2 1/2 packs worth of base cards right now). Trading will hopefully commence shortly thereafter. 😀
That’s all for this one sports fans. Tune in next time for the Northside half of White Sox Cards‘ exceedingly great packet from not long ago.
After that look for a three-parter to get my poor Gint-A-Cuffs showing officially posted and out of the way. Let’s just say I’m near the bottom of the pack in that one. Bleh.
I’m failing bad at the being social and card trading things. Sorry. 😦